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{Thursday, April 30, 2009 , 10:37:00 PM} "What your attitude says about you?" And the result is Happy Go Lucky. you tend to go with the flow and alot of ppl admire about that, u easily make friends and can keep them without discomfort. your very loyal and honest and if something doesnt suit you, you get over it easily. Laid back is the way you like to live! "Are you ready to commit yourself?" And the result is You are not sure of what you want. Having that special someone in your life just makes you happy and feel loved but somehow, you are still not sure of what you want. You still don't have a clue whether you are ready to commit yourself. Sometimes, you might be wondering whether it is right to feel this way. I'm telling you, its not wrong. Its just normal. Not everyone is ready to commit themselves. It carries big responsibilities. But, give yourself time. Maybe in time to come, you'll find that maybe, your ready to commit yourself to her/him.Goodluck! "What's wrong with you?" And the result is Too Friendly. You're very open with people, which is great, but sometimes those people are wearing brass knuckles, which is not great. You tend to think that people are generally good at heart, and because of that, you're very trusting. People are drawn to your positive attitude and you tend to make friends easily. (You might also be a little vain, but hey, who could blame you? You're a good-looking individual, and you have a right to be a little cocky about it. So where could you go wrong? Well, if you're too friendly, you might not be on alert for those folks you really shouldn't trust. So try to use more caution when you meet new people. And quit trading gym socks with strangers. That's just plain gross. {Wednesday, April 29, 2009 , 1:01:00 AM} Should not let, or to be exact, should not even allow all this to happen in the first place. Bottomline ; One wrong move, ruined everything . {Monday, April 27, 2009 , 10:47:00 PM} I have qualm in everything i do. Unwittingly, my confident level is dropping down very slowly. I feels that i don't deserve what i have now. I don't deserve them, and all . Apart from that, I am so hurtful with that sudden change. Am i over-sensitive? or am i taking things seriously? Okay maybe I'm just imagine things. It could be unintentionally. Maybe .. maybe .. maybe .. But as the matter of fact, somehow, i feel the twinge deep down inside, deep down . Don't bother to ask me..my mood is not good. But but maybe i could be wrong. Like what i said, maybe I'm just imagine things. {Sunday, April 26, 2009 , 11:22:00 PM} This global warming or whatsoever it is, is getting vastly terrible. But at least today's weather is bearable for me than yesternight. I am so loving the weather, raining, cooling and perfectly syiok ~weee! I can feel the cold air tonight. Okays, weather aside. Too much talk about this. HAHA! Moving on. School works, research for my TPS, checked done! I having nothing much to do. I'm not going to do more quizzes in FB. I have enough doing it today. No life haha! So, both of my Saturday and Sunday was well spent slacking at home with family. Partly because i know my weekdays will be burnt for school. Can say i spend almost up to 13 hours in school per day?? Well, my second home, i guess haha! And tomorrow another hectic week for me. For me to endure will the mass lecture, friends who encroaching my trust with their getting-so-obvious hypocrite behaviors & all those endless uninvited matters along the way. But i still do love school no matter what. Don't know why laa..but i just love it. Get me? hahahas! Anyway, at the very least, you trying to be honest with me. Indirectly but i get what you meant. But there's one part that im not so sure. I guess i have to find out myself, or better if i ask that person myself. Only when the time is right . . . Oh before i forget. Sani and SimSim participated in singing competition @ JCC. They required to sing 60's songs. Congratulations to SimSim! He managed to clinched 3rd place! And for Sani, don't be disappointed alright. You did your best and you're still the best for us! :) Initially i wanted to come down and support them today but unfortunately, I'm down with headache. Not that very well. Dammnn..! Goodnight earthlings ! { , 3:24:00 PM} ''What is your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?'' And the result is Your EQ is 118. You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.On an average day, you're quite happy, together, and content. You live your life well.Your emotions aren't always stable, but you can go along with the ups and downs pretty well.You tend to be motivated, energetic, focused, and level headed.You see the world pretty rationally, and you don't tend to over dramatize things. When things are bad, you know they eventually have to get better. "What's your Perfect Relationship?" And the result is Attached at the Hip. You love the feeling of being in a relationship. So when you get into one, you want to be with that person as much as humanly possible. You're also a little insecure about dating, so you'd rather have your sweetie nearby than wonder what they're doing when they're out of sight. Look for someone who's in it for the long haul, just like you are. And if they say they they're not ready for a relationship, or they need some space, then run the other way. "Are you meant to be? And the result is You're Meant To Be! OMG, do we hear wedding bells? You and this person are total, attached-at-the-hip soulmates! "What kind of Girlfriend are you"? And the result is Dream Girl. You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have. You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.) "Are you really in love"? And the result is It's More Like Friendship. Sorry, but the only love going on in this relationship is a mutual love of nachos and hangin' out. Which is great, if that's what you're looking for. (Who doesn't like having friends? And nachos?) But if what you really want is love, you have two choices: try to infuse some love into this relationship, or look for someone else. The choice is yours. Good luck! "Why are you still Single?" And the result is You Kinda Like Being Single. Why are you in such a rush to get tied down? It looks like you kinda like having the freedom of being single. Don't get into a relationship - you'll probably end up breaking someone's heart. Instead, flirt around and have fun. Only settle down when you're really ready to. "What do people like about you?" And the result is You're Sweet. It makes complete sense that people want to be your friend. You'll do anything to make their life better - even if it means making your own life a little worse. We commend you on your generosity, and we hope that people will learn from your example and quit being so self-centered all the time. But make sure to look out for your own needs, too. Being too nice can lead to people taking advantage of you. { , 1:01:00 AM} I'm bored to death. I wondering how the rest in this house can sleep peacefully in this kind of weather. While I'm here fanning, mumbling to myself. This weather have successfully not helping me to have my sleeping beauty at all. Practically, the weather is like a damn major problem to me right now. I'm so uncomfortable. I swear i damn stuffy. I swear I'm tired of fanning myself. The fans have been on for hours but I can still feel the hot air surrounds me. What's the use of siting in front of it then. Grr! Feel like soaking myself inside a COLD tub. Just a gentle reminder. Currently, I'm having a bad mood now. Don't irritated me as i can get pissed off easily at this moment. Plus, the weather is really freaking me off somehow.. I don't know how many times must i bath..damnn! {Saturday, April 25, 2009 , 6:33:00 PM} Good start for the day. I was indeed surprised to see myself waking up earllyyy in the morning and getting myself ready to go out. Not to meet friends nor going to school but went to have a walk, inhale the morning fresh air. Plus, jogging session? Believe it or not. Oh my, when was the very last time i did this?? Oh well, I deserve some fresh space for myself too anyway. Moving on. I fairly happy that i still managed to run for few rounds without stopping. Within my time target, great! Somehow this reminds me of Sharmila, my only Indian friend in my block. Been 4 years we last met. She was the one who coached me to be a good runner yearss ago. Thanks to you i obtain few medals in my primary/secondary school days. You're now in India anyway. Wonder how have you been. I'm sure you are a beautiful lady by now, or maybe you already married with your lover that you used to contact with when you was in Singapore back then Ahas! *swink* Remember the hard days we both went thru' when your parents found out? And you ran home for days. Not so far very nearby to your house, opposite your neighbour's house. Pitifully, your parents searched for you high and low all over Singapore. HAHA what a naughty girl you were. I miss slacking under the void deck after school/late night/weekends..happily munching chips at your father's shop below my house, and helping you out attending the shop too. Oh girl, do surprised me a visit one day. May you always happy down there :) Quality time at home was just nice. Spring cleaning! We will never missed to tease each other. Shouting over smallest matter. Like Adek trying to be 'princess' sitting in front of TV, not helping us (feeling-feeling anak raja la pulak). Irritating brother of mine who enjoy making me feels frustrated (suke nah cari pasal ngan aku!). And me will always go "Mak! Tengok Abang ni! (Mummy! Look at brother!). This result in Mummy keep nagging continuously while doing her works (standard). For that, i called this as happy moments. lovelove ! There will always be something that will encroach my, at least, today's GOOD mood. Gradually, the weather, this very weather is a killer. People are grouchy over it. This is ridiculously HOT! And, indirectly this is affecting my mood too. Extremely stuffy. How i wish to bath every hours and then. I have to fan my own self in the end :/ Labels: At least, it's a good day. {Thursday, April 23, 2009 , 10:49:00 PM} "Who is your secret admirer?" And the result is Your Worst Enemy. The person that you think despises you, but realy has a loving heart for you! ''What the first letter of the person you will fall in love with?" And the result is A. You love brave and strong people who help u make grate decisions. (When i took this quiz, i got this feeling i'll get this letter. And tadaaa! Yes, i got A. HAHA!! You came into my mind and i was laughing to myself, Ahaha!!) "Which type of women are you?" And the result is LOVELY LADY . You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare! {Sunday, April 19, 2009 , 11:02:00 PM} Had heart to heart talk yesterday night and at the very least, I have done my part. I have said what i supposed to say all this long. Which i have done before but you remain the same. Plus, people have been saying that I'm the one who keep things hanging in the air without saying things clearly..I'm the one who have the very right to say and the only person who can clear things off and the list goes. Yes, I was hurt when they say all that to me. As if I am the only person to be blame. But hey, I'm going to accept that.. take the blames because I feel i deserve it. Perhaps, i really deserve all this.. At last there's a little bit of space for me. A space for me to breathe. But not all is still alright yet, i know. Truth that i still want to know, and what i should know..wadsoever. Actaully there's no reason for me to know but I am just curious about all this thingy you see. But at the bright side, we have clarified things about us. I'm happy. It's about give and take after all. I hope in our convo do make you realised.. Meanwhile....  HAPPY BIRTHDAY HIRZIE !(: I know I'm a day late to wish this look-like-usher boy.(x What's more i don't have your new number. May you have a blissful journey..full of happiness and laughter. I know you can go far and you are born with the natural talent in dancing. I just love seeing you dancing HAHA! Ok i know random! Whatever it is, all the best..may you achieve your dreams, zie! Do online again soon, so i can start teasing you in MSN. Or maybe not, i can always tease you in school. Baahhh.. { , 6:11:00 PM} What will you name you first daughter?" with the result Vanessa. (HAHAAAAHA!) She'll always be a girly-girl. Loves you and depends on you when she needs it. She loves everyone and will have many boyfriends. She'll be popular and really smart.. "In your circle of friends, who are you?'' with the result The Underappreciated Bestfriend. You try to keep everyone happy, and sometimes at your expense. You foot the bill when you're all out to celebrate, just so everyone can have a good time and not worry about money. You'd do anything for your friends, even though they forget to thank you or don't show you the appreciation you deserve. Although it's nice that you're being everyone's rainbow, think about yourself, too. No one will think you're a bad friend if you say no to some of their requests.. P/S: I'm bored to dead ! { , 12:38:00 AM} Nothing much today. Decided to spend time with family at home this weekend. I need to put aside my time for them eversince i was busy with other things last few weeks. I can foresee that i will be busy with school activities and all . Anyway, im not that well..Ade hal sikit. Thus, Mak rushed me to clinic. The clinic will be close soon so she went panic-in-the-disco for a moment ahaahaa! She really rush me and herself too, very kecoh! But the clinic didn't really close that soon because still have a loonnggg queue & i hate the queue a whole damn lot! Waited for an hour. Mak almost fall asleep. Pluss, me! Another hectic week for me. School? Ohhh well, what can i say. It's going to be tougher for me this year. Second year with new modules and new lecturers. We have 4 new classmates but didn't have the chance to talk to them. First time having lecture and summore at the Lecture Theater. Hmm i kinda hate it because i simply can't concentrate in there. I prefer learning in classroom instead of having all classes together in the theater. First thing, the lecturer seems to talk to herself or maybe to the wall. No one is listening to her. Even students in the front row is sleeping like nobody business. Secondly, the surrounding is damn irritating. Students at the back are making all sort of noises. Laughing and shouting among themselves. Lastly, how am i suppose to concentrate in such situation anyway? I can't. So this may leads me talking to my friends or disturbing them. In order for me not to off to LALA Land..i have to do sumthg else. As for now, i should learn not regret for what has happened. Like what they say 'Don't cry for what happen, smile because it happened' I agree to this but at times, i can't refrain myself from not crying eventhou' that's the last thing i want to do. I don't wanna to breakdown in front of them because they should not see my tears. All I want is things to be back like last time. The happy moments we all used to have back then, with nothing but laughter. But as days goes by, everthing seems to change bit by bit. I know where I'm standing. I'm back to square one, still facing it all by myself. I hope everything will get better sooner or later... - I was damn bored and thank god Fatris was there to entertain me. Thank you!:) { , 12:04:00 AM} Let's update about school. Well i really hope that i can cope with my studies. Costing is at least still ok with me, at least. For Advance Accounting? Hmm i must really force myself to pay extra attention for this modules. Now is my second year and i knew i have to really study extra hard. No more playing and skipping class, hopefully. Got my result. I was satisfied with my GPA. I get what i really want at last! I'm a happy kid :) What's more first position in class, that's my hard work and all Weee ~ But as for now i need to cut down spending time on my CCA by not involving much for the upcoming show. If only i have the confident that I'm quite stable in my studies then i might consider again hehe. Here what happened for this week... 14th April 09 ; CCA FAIR (April Intake)  Not as fun as Jan Intake. Yea, quite boring. I admit i didn't put my very best for this event. I didn't practise hard for it during our training. But happy with the outcome, we did a good job! Despite problems occurred before that. Well problem is already part of us before performance. Have to be mentally and physically prepared always. Then went up to the booth to help Atikah and the rest. Same ol' thing we took pictures.             Quite numbers of juniors sign up for Malay Dance. But there's some problem hahas only we (the Malay Dancers) know what it is. After everything finished, we wrapped up. After that went to Tamp1 with friends. Went TimeZone. Boys VS Girls ; draw 1-1 hahahs!  17th April 09 Went to watch Cats the Musical at Esplanade. First thing i would like to congrats the performers for the splendid job! A totally fabulous performance from them :) I salute each and every one of them because they can actually sing and also dance for that almost 3 hours show. Ohmygoodness! If i were them, i would have fainted by then hahas. Well of course they are all well trained for this.      I was amazed with the enchanting stage setting. Very interesting. So far this is the best and cute performance for me. The Cats are really very cute with their dance steps, costumes, shaking their butts and all haha! Just very adorable. I even laughed and smiling while watching them.     
A show that should not be missed. For those who love musical should watch. A short time with friends because by the time the show end was already late. Pity Yana because she was famished since afternoon maybe. Sorry eh Yana, lau tau abis lambat kite gi makan dulu seh instead of minum air je HAHA! A short day but i do have fun at least and did abit of catch up with Hana. And im sure Hirzie and LeeLee also enjoyed teasing me all the way in the esplanade till the show ended and i got this feeling they will continue in school HAHA .... {Thursday, April 16, 2009 , 11:52:00 PM} Things are all over the place, very messy. I'm breaking down.. Now i have noone to share with because everyone is going away or maybe i shouldn't share with anyone. I shouldn't share anything to anyone, asked questions and i shouldn't trust people at the first place. I don't know whats going to happen next but i just wish things to be better and as usual again. To whom it may concern, i truly am sorry for everything. I have been troubling you you you you. Like i said, it's either i too trust people or i don't at all.. - I hate goodbyes because I hate changes - { , 11:41:00 PM} I hate myself for what has happened but i won't blame anyone for this except myself. Because all of this start from me. You even said that I'm the one who holding things back. Things are getting complicated even more. I'm hurting people who love me dearly even more and more and which mean, i also hurting myself even deeper to see them in this state. To be frank, i hate and afraid to make decision because i afraid of losing my love ones, i afraid i might take the wrong steps. But to think back, i need not be afraid in this case because it may hurt them more. I have to learn to take the risk and even if i have to scarifice my own happiness. I don't want to mess things up again. Yes, I'm not in the right state to make any decision but i really have to this time. They are suffering all this while and we don't want to prolong it any longer. But once things are settled or at least, much much clearer for us, I don't wish to make anymore mess..and to trouble anyone anymore. I guess i have to think of another way which is better for you and us. Dear God, I'm hurting too many people all this while with or without knowing. I must not be selfish if i were to have them all to myself. Therefore again, I must learn to let things go at time, but everything seems to change soon which i hate it alot and hope may not happen. May everything will be alright very soon. {Sunday, April 12, 2009 , 10:04:00 PM} For those who asked, I am fine over here. Not to worry much, I will handle things by myself. I didn't mean to attract anyone's attention or make anyone worry by not answering calls and replying SMSes. Anyhoos, I went thru such a hectic week this week. Supposed to relax at home after my return from Cambodia but my 7days have been burnt with other activities. Yea, I'm out for seven days straight. To be frank, I'm dead exhausted at this very moment. I'm still tired from the trip and adding to other busy-ness this week. I even hardly have the time for my very ownself :( As a result, I even neglect my lovelove family. Mak have been nagging that I'm always went out and will be home at night, and sometimes, late night. Yes, i know that and i feel bad for that , very very bad. I am sorry... Oh well here come the school. I am excited but hey, can i have another holiday? If yes, I want to have a real good rest this time. Yea, as if ahahcks! To my dear Makcik Farah, school(ite) will be fun to you one day. Like me, LOVE school. Eh! I'm not lying! Babe..not to worry you still have me in school. Beep me if you need any rescue x) School re-open and therefore, BUSY-NESS here I come ....... { , 8:38:00 PM}
 
My Saturday was well spent with friends but at the end of the day, I'm tired haha. I'm not well actually but since i miss my Cambodia friends that much, i decided to meet them. We went bowling at Marina Square while waiting for the rest to come. I was shocked to see the bill hahaha i don't know how many rounds they play. Tim and Bert went to play pool while us went to play at Arcade. HAHAHA crazy people. The girls was screaming when Nad was playing the shooting game. Then come Man and his friend. After that, went for our dinner at Tong Seng. Thanks guys, i really have great fun time. Still miss you all :) Then went East Coast for Kamsani's birthday pit. Get to meet his fun-going families. Very kecohhh type..best :) At 9 plus, we surprised the birthday boy with cake. As usual, birthday boy kena sabo. Bella too kena..yela boyfriend lau kena girlfriend pon kena rasa jugak mah..haaha! Abang fetch me home at 12am. Thank you so much. Didn't mean to bother you but i know you love me hehe, sayang abang :)  HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY KAMSANI ! May you have a sweet and memorable journey with your love ones. And have a blissful days. Last long with your lovely Bella :) GOD BLESS YOU . {Friday, April 10, 2009 , 9:37:00 PM} Day 5 ; R&R After all the hard working, it was our Rest and Relax Day. Shopping babe!! But again..I'm not well GRR! Massive headache strikes again!! Thus no proper breakfast and dinner, only had garlic bread & apple juice. And muke aku mcm tapai basi sak ahahas! Anyway, we shopped at Russian Market. They sell so many things till I don't know what to buy. The place super warm, again perspire like mad but we still continue shopping. We given an hour to shop..so you can imagine us shop like an amazing race. Grab whatever we can.   We bus-ed to Toul Sleng Genocide Museum (S-21). I was engrossed exploring each cells, from one building to another with the rest. A porgnant period, I could feel the pained they went thru for four years. Maybe you could do your own research about it. Because if i go on, it going to be lengthy post hehe. But I'm sure with the pictures that I uploaded, you all can at least imagine what happened during that time.
(They are torture in this way till death )            ( Thousands of pictures of people who was dead )      ( The Prison ) After that, we had boat ride. Not much fun and drab ride for me, maybe because i was not well and that time it was abit hazy so the view was not that clear. But i can assure that Atikah do enjoyed the boat ride hehe.     Day 6 - Day 8 ; Morning Star feat Goodbye Cambodia. Next morning, back to our mission. This time no need to worry about the scorching sun anymore. We will be working under shelter and with kids. Yea, kids! I LOVE KIDS VERY VERY MUCH! Oh not to forget, our purpose there was to cook for the kids and for the nurses, they went to Dumpster to nurse the people there. For cooking team, we all did a great job except for the first day. Maybe it was on first try, so we learn from mistakes. I didn't help much in cooking but just helped peeling and frying because as you know, I'm not good in kitchen teehee :)  
Me Adam and Nick became the teachers for the kids for the 3Days. Not part of our mission because it was last minutes. But I don't mind. The kids are verryyyy adorable but but veryyyy naughty to the max! I was molested by them every minutes, not only me the rest who taught them too including boys. They can be very touchy too uh, but they are just kids so understand understood laa. They are just around 4-6 years old i guess. We taught them basic English like "Whats your name? How are you?" ABC & 123 . Not forgetting knowing colours and objects, played games with them too!
Oh and i also wish to be a childcare or kindergarten teacher, so i took this as an practise for me HAHAHAH!! Oh well whatever it is, I had fun with them & i was super happy when they called me 'teacher' when they submitted their colouring papers hahahcks! Happy or what? I think I'm the one who enjoy the most instead of the kids, serious! I'm not lying..aku kan budak2 haha! Anyway, i have one favourite boy over there. His name is PERTIK ! :) Will upload his pictures on the next post.
Our last day, we perform-ed the same things like we did at Widow's Island. Once again, a very good job to us despite we were all tired at the end of the day! :) Did our best to make them smile. I'm proud of us. Before going home(Singapore), we had another an hour shopping. But we must be fast because we got flight to catch. This time we really shopping like a mad people. GRAB, GRAB, GRAB!
( The kids LOVE to take pictures, really ! )
( The Teachers )
( The models )
( Me and my student xp )
INDELIBLE MOMENT . MISS YOU ALL ! |
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