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{Tuesday, September 30, 2008 , 5:53:00 PM} Yeah Yeah ! Besok Hari Raya ! Yeah Yeah ! Tak dinafikan lagi, Ramadhan memang penuh dengan dugaan. Satu demi satu kebenaran. Thou' i do encounter problems and few of low moments..hurts..tears and happiness here and there, deep inside i know..sume ini kehendak-NYA ; banyak ujian. And to force me doing things that i dislike, is not worth for real. Overall im glad not much suffering. With that I Thank Allah s.w.t Allhamdullilah. Nek, Nana missing you now, and ever always. Wont be celebrating this great festive with you this time round and for the upcoming years too. That the reason why initially im not looking forward for Raya but life have to move on. I can sense the difference without you and there will be changes in this house, im sure. Nana rinduuuuu sangat pat nenek. Rinddduuuu ! Will always pray for you and cant wait to meet you again. Alfatheha. Dengan kesempatan ini, Nana ingin memohon seribu lebih maaf jika Nana ade buat salah dan silap. Nana tau kekadang Nana ade terkasar bahasa dan kelakuan Nana yang menyakitkan hati sesiapa pat luar tuh baik nampak atau tidak, nana minta maaf. Mungkin cara nana bergurau pon, ada jugak yang anggap lain...dan nana tau nana banyak menyakitkan hati teman-teman-kus, mohon ampun ku pinta. Halalkan makan minum Nana selama ini. Jika selama ini Nana ade menyusahkan mana-mana pihak..im truly sorry. Serious. Ikhlas dari hati, Raihanah. SELAMAT HARI RAYE TO ALL MUSLIMS ALL OVER THE WORLD (: Have fun with Family and love ones tomorrow ~ ! {Sunday, September 28, 2008 , 2:53:00 AM} Here to update abit whats happening in the house. Im so-in-the-mood for Raya..! Yeah ! (: Start listening to Raye songs, busy with cleaning and clearing. Me and Mummy are all done with those hand-made kuihs. I really looking forward for Raye since Bangkok Trip was cancelled ha-ha-ha ! And the song you listening now are my all-time favorite song ; Ewa Ewa Hari Raya (: love the part when those kids sing. Sungguh cute kan ! Side track. I have yet to buy my Baju Kurung, hmph! There's few which i like but yang buat spoilt karat, HARGA! Da lawa lawa, da suke..sekali harga pulak buat hal. Selalu gini taw, hmphh! Oh and this on mat JB came beside me and nak bekenalan. wth! He said that in front of his parents and my cousin but to bad she didnt see the incident. And Amirul Haziq..you are damn bloody cute..! Bile mood senyap, senyap all the way..main jeling2 pulak tu..bile mood baik, nak pulak kat orang haha! But Aunty enjoys laughing and play games with you (: Back to reality, i have load and loadsa things to do. So many things with so little time huh! While doing housework, listening to Raya songs..feeling Raya like that. muahahahahha! Believe it or not, i cleaned my room's window..serious. Like one monkey panjat panjat, and dad scolded me..afraid i might end up at level one. He sayang me oit! I almost done with my room and house. Oh by the way, aren't im a good daughter? Awww..i know i know *blushing* ((: But but but, i have many many other things to be done. In short, MAJOR SPRING CLEANING is up ! So if you dont mind, please excuse me. {Friday, September 26, 2008 , 10:45:00 AM}  At times, i gets bored with everything..even for nothing. Just a sudden feeling, and it may drag to lonnngg hourss. Like whats happening now. I find its just too much for me...cause i might appears strong but im not for real. Things can never get any easier if this goes on and on which make it seems wont get any better at all. Well, and i always get myself confused too, more susah! Like who to believe..you or you? them or them? he or she? Oh, you know that kind of thinking. Mess-ed up. Still the best est solution is ' Believe In Yourself ((: Just so you know, i dont really trust people. I tried but but but i can't. I really do want to share alot of things especially whats going on in my life with people by talking other than blogging. but each time it always end up get myself into trouble. So might as well i keep it to myself right? Play safe ha-ha-ha. Meanwhile, im waiting for my Auntie to arrive here and off we go to JB. I miss Amirul Haziq, that cute boy :D Lastly, I still on my Mission in haunting for my Pink or Purple Baju Kurung.. Weee...Let's haunt ! {Thursday, September 25, 2008 , 10:51:00 PM} Never try to make kuih before cause im so-not-good in kitchen matters Hahaha. So last two days, this little sweet girl was trying her luck to do something in kitchen, Honey Cornflake for Raye. Turn-ed nice like what Abang commented '' Sedap ! tapi keras '' Hahaha. True enough, its hard. First time mah, what you expect right? Still, lucky enough laku jugak la kan. That whole box of Honey Cornflake finished in two days even before Raye starts. Thanks to Adek and Abang ((: Give another try today. Best, turns just nice. Not keras, simple and sweet. Just nice. Give round of applause for Ms Raihanah, YAY! Oh thanks to Mummy for helping me too. LOVEYOU! {Tuesday, September 23, 2008 , 11:05:00 PM}  I thought my September will be smooth and great. but it seems like one after another bad incidents happen. The trip to Bangkok was cancelled ! gawd ! It was really really disheartening to hear it. Im soooooo realllyyyyyy looking forward for this, seriously but too bad. Second Trip cancelled in 4 months? How am i suppose to feel? Sungguh mengecewakan, very ! We were told earlier that the riot over there, might be worsen. So the trip would be cancel. And now, its really cancelled, TSK ! Firstly, Syafiq messaged me that the trip was cancelled. Didnt intend to call up anyone yet cause at that time macam tak percaya gitu, even the person in-charge didnt sms me anything. Waited for the next day, went to school.. straight asked Cikgu to call MrLim if its true or otherwise Sadly, YES! Can obviously see how disappointed we are :(( damnbloddy kecewa rabak giler. Im so disappointed. We all have put in effort in this, but yah, not our luck i guess. Here's the SMS that we received : Dear students and colleagues, considering the travel advisory given by S'pore MFA, the 3 ITE Colleges have decided to cancel the Trip. Best Regards Lim. Labels: truly DISAPPOINTED { , 1:28:00 AM} im plain effing tired. i am really exhausted and thus, my mood is not good recently. very bad mood swing sometimes, tend to say things that i not supposed to say..end up hurting people feeling, react differently and other syndromes ha-ha-ha. i feel all my energy is used up but for what? i dont know. been staying up late perhaps. let the pictures do the talking ((: Pictures with Girlfriends ! THEME ; BLUE AND WHITE . 10 years friendship and still counting.. SHEYMAH :D      aku sayang korang ! Sharz, next year raye nak beli baju ajak kiteorg lagi kays. no pictures of me and my sayang sisterbiolz today. too busy to take any pictures huhu (: {Sunday, September 21, 2008 , 2:28:00 AM} im still searching for pink/purple baju kurung. theres this one i saw yesterday at bazaar geylang, very nice! its like combination of pink and purple but expensive la seyy ! aiyoyo tambi ! i really like that one , mummy pleasee ? *baby face* im super hate the idiot person who stole my hp! gee, you sure know who's the owner of the hp right? casue there's pic of me etc. and i sure know you would be laughing each time you see me & perhaps you would be saying " ehk, kesian eh tak tau aku yang curi hp kau " or maybe i would have smile to you all this while and still dont know you're the one that stole my hp :/ its like making you feel stupid some sort like that. )': i miss you my love hp..you just two months old and you're gone. thanks ehk to that-idiot-stealer ! and this current hp of mine is giving headache. why cant you behave yourself !? {Saturday, September 20, 2008 , 6:29:00 PM} THANK YOU(S) !  including the above bag from Yan, cam tau tau je something wrong with my current bag, hehe ((:  from another of my friend, Sufiyan. after terawih straight came over to my place. surprised visit la katakan, memang terkejot pon ha-ha-ha. since he knows i love chocs.. he bought me that plus a brooch in that small box ((:  from Asri and Matin. thanks As for making your way to school, to pass me this . appreciate it dude (: like it told you both, its such a comel bear bear haha. cute banget sik ! cam tau tau jugak that i adore bears hehe ((:
dear liana, that protrait of me, im so gonna frame it soon. and that pieces of heart in the heart key chain..ade bau wangi lagi. heart you too muackxx ! ((: SAYANG KALIAN SEMUA ! {Friday, September 19, 2008 , 8:53:00 PM} the day is here, and now im officially 18 year happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to Raihanah.. happy birthday to me ! xp im e-i-g-h-t-e-e-n ! Wah, big girl already huh ?! ha-ha-ha. well, this year is the bestest birthday ever. i dont know why but somehow i just find its so much happening, so happy to see my them happy, unexpected gift hehe. but still, first and foremost, i am grateful to Allah SWT for still wanting me to continue my life journey in this wonderful world, to be with my love ones. Allhamdulilah . i love everyone to the max and beyond, can? thanks guys for the presents, well-wishes for me & family regardless thru' call, message, blog, friendster, myspace, etc and also personally, thank you so much ! i do really appreciate it alootttss ! When the clock strike 12am onwards, my phone keep beeping...even before i get to put down my phone back on the table, it vibrate again teehee. Syafiq thanks for the special dedication on your blog. Wah abg sapao kiter dade blog seh(: Asri thanks for coming down to school, to pass me the present & Matin, terima kasih ye, your first time ehk hehe ;) Liana too, she drew a portrait of me..awww so sweet! i LOVE it and love u too hehe xp. Mummy bought mini-chocolate cake, woohoo! and guess what? Not a big celebration thou but guess what? haha, dont laugh alright! i cook-ed Nasi Goreng for my Family! turned out to be N I C E! omg, shocked? oh yah Kak Iezah, makasih for the sms-birthday cake from Malaysia ((: To my new-found senior twin, NurAmalina and another twin, Shima : HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINS :D May God bless you ! Wokays, its wishing time :D All this while i have been wishing alot of those merepek-ness and impossible things. you know, like prince charming etc. ha-ha-ha but now what i wish for is untuk jadi anak yang s o l e h a h ;) happiness, to be with my family and friends always, ever-lasting love and never-ending chocolate supply teehee, this one i know merepek but i still would like to wish for it,bluek! and so once again, thank you everyone for everything ! love you people many many :D {Thursday, September 18, 2008 , 11:08:00 AM} supposed to stay at home and be a good girl but yesterday night, Cikgu called me, asking me to come down to school for Bangkok training. was blur blur cause im not going to Bangkok so whats up coming down right? Cikgu explained to me, the four girls from Clementi cancelled their trip with us. hearing that, i was hoping for something ahaha. Initially, six person from Malay Dance are allowed to go ; 4 from Clementi and 2 from Simei. Since they cancelled theirs, Cikgu wants me to go. Cool ! ahha. i was damn jealous cause Iza and Atikah gets to go..but now, i am tagging along too..woohoo yay (: Atin Yana KakBanny going too! break-fast at Kembangan with Atikah, Cikgu, Rendimon, Syafiq, Suffian and Alwis. happy happy eating, teasing, jokes,syarahan from 'ustaz' Alwis, slippa putus and laughter of course. Thanks to Atikah and Rendi for kopekkan udang and Syafiq for finishing my Nasi Goreng Seafood..takleh abes, banyak sangat seh ha-ha-ha. then the rest went to the nearest shop, left me with Suffian only. I dont know why they went without telling me hmmm. And i received my first birthday present from Suffian(: hehe, thank you Suffian! yet to open it, shall open it tomorrow! another surprise from Sufiyan. Coincidence huh!? Sufiyan and Suffian. I just find its funny haha. He messaged me, saying that hes under my block. Was shocked, what do you expected then. Went down to meet him & and my another present! ohmygod! Yan, i seriously like it! Serious! thank you Sufiyan(: chit chat for awhile and walk-ed him to the bus-stop. i just love today, the feeling. I feel the warm love, happiness. God, can this feeling stay? moments with love ones will always be wonderful. happy to see each and everyone of my friends happy. few more minutes to my day. I SWEAR i can feel my heart beats fast, i mean really fast! butterfly in my stomach! i swear and im not lying! i dont know why, i dont know why ha-ha-ha ! Raihanah, time is ticking, tick tock tick tock ... {Wednesday, September 17, 2008 , 1:54:00 AM} am i been too selfish? i dont know. am i strong enough to face the music? i dont know. am i trying to play hard? i dont know. am i letting everything as it is? i dont know but what i know is that, to feel the total pain is really hurting. and i dont wish to feel it for another round. i dont want. {Monday, September 15, 2008 , 9:41:00 AM} its 15th of ramadhan. time really flies so fast huh!? next fifteen days, HARI RAYA! but i have yet to feel the raya-raya feeling ): a lot of things happens during this month..too much of unwanted incidents happened, which really do makes me do a lot of thinking here and there. its not good for health, i realise that ha-ha-ha. but still im trying my best to search for the solution a.s.a.p(!)like what peopel say, during this month(fasting month) we will face alot of challenges, indeed its true! since im done with my exams, im back to my world again. went for training today in the evening. been weeks didnt go cemta..quite miss people down there :)) hahack! felt little bit awkward to dance..kekok babe! only 2 weeks didnt attend training because of exams, dah kekok haha! what if months? hmmm... another unexpected things happened! he called me? was typing msg and out of sudden, his name appeared. didnt manage to pick up cause i was stunned & he put down the phone after seconds. -.- but i did msg him in the evening..its good to hear that he's fine down there :D anyhoos whole family didnt wake up for pre-dawn. but i manage to survive without any complain? cool ! *claps for kueen* another training tomorrow. hope its going to be fun, and ya, buka luar okay guys? {Sunday, September 14, 2008 , 1:37:00 AM} apology? if it an sincere one, then its way much appreciate but what if its just saying with empty meaning ? lets dont blame and starts pinpoint anyone. but to be fair. lets blame us. i dont really like the way you are, it just scaring me off. and i just wish that you wont rush me AND rush things to happen exactly the way you want. i guess i have do this for this meantime. let see how it goes.... {Friday, September 12, 2008 , 11:05:00 PM} i really just dont get and understand with these people lately. seriously, i dont understand ! makes me even more confused and ain't helping me at all. thanks eh ! oh god! if thats the way you think about me, thats it. it's up to you...i got nothing else to say. Im trying to make things clear, step by step. why are u rushing things out? there..he said you very understanding good give in person etc, but how come can that be? u dont understand my situation, you dont understand what the hell am i going thru, you dont know me that much and you dont know whats going on in my mind. no-no-no! all you want is for things to be the way you want and rush things as if you are running out of time. if you are, what about my time then? i given out chances to people but nothing seems to change. Gaining back my trust is not easy. it takes time and in fact, everything takes time to process, to be perfectly done in our way. i gave chances to people, helping me to gain it back but turns out to be such a disappointment. really upsetting :( i guess, i have to do this all by my own. without anyone helps AND therefore, it will take a longggggerrrr time ! understand ? ohya, before i forget..i kindof not in the mood to talk to you for this meantime after you send me that msg..erm yah! byeee ! {Thursday, September 11, 2008 , 5:07:00 PM}           i really had super great time with you girls. i just love this ! next outing ? {Tuesday, September 9, 2008 , 11:45:00 PM} like finally, final exams is over! & holidays comes to rescue ;D been staying up till 2am flipping thru absorbing all information for 3days straight for BFD. hardly get any rest or worst sleep. woke up in the morning till i shut my eyes, all i did was memorising. puff pathetic. yes, i know. but overall...i'm satisfied did my veeerryyyyyy possible best and insya'allah get what i wish for. So it worth . BFD paper was quite easy..but was kind of mad because few questions they asked us to state/list instead of explain/describe. I've memorised with understanding like one mad and all the asked for was STATE?! grrr! never mind, it's over and i know i did my possible best in it. i wish for A but then i got this feeling, its B ? hmm...whatever it is..i just don't want to retake this subject, that's all. but still i hoping for A. lets move on to my afd paper. all 4questions was manageable. last question make me felt like jumping off from my sit...managed to balance that Bank Recon. who not happy? during class always not tally la, don't understand the errors la, this and that la, third tried still the tak-paham la. but not for today. first attempted and balance, happy or whut? mission accomplished..exams over! make our way to simpang bedok with my gilers, break-fast there. nothing much but full of laughter..i just love those moments can? my darling with sexy pose, abg2 sane nk kenal2 laa, main suap2 makanan because the quantity of foods was alots..so we exchange food ha-ha-ha . okay people, my brain cells are fried..my energy all used up. i need to get rid of this fugly panda eyes. i need to recharge myself...a loonnnngggg sleeping beauty ((: Selamat Ulang Tahun KAK IEZAH ! pi cari boyfriend cepat, leh nana turun m'sia makan nasi minyak (: {Friday, September 5, 2008 , 10:28:00 PM} marked nine months today, you're gone . feel like we just spent time together happy laughing yesterday all along. i just want to say i miss you much, nek (: and im back to my study world now. byeeeeee {Wednesday, September 3, 2008 , 8:57:00 PM} was not allowed to enter for my accounting class cause im late..2mins late.class start at 10am cause no ofa lesson today..woke up slightly late lah thats why reached school late ha-ha-ha. so, this goodgirl here did her revision; bfd and her yesterday account's homework too ((: hahs yang tak sempat nak uat semalam . let's talk about my OFA exam ; Microsoft access. I'm quite happy, did well thou' i already spotted one or two mistakes. I'm confident for this but still, wont be too over-confident. lets put at least an B but NOT less. thats all for ofa exams..all complete(!) one down two more to go. accounting and business. been mugging for my business everyday..till the next morning. da macam O-level la pulak bahhss ! tons and tons of words i have to memorise, you know. all 15 units equals to whole book will be included for this exams..woohoo. one word : C R A Z Y ! {Monday, September 1, 2008 , 9:46:00 PM} It's the starting of September . I can feel the sunshine for this month (: i hope for better day everyday..for me to continue smilling like nobody business because i just miss the old me, you and us for sure. Went thru bad moments lately and im looking forward for holidays. i badly need breaks..the real break. now my job is to CONCENTRATE on my studies. exams exams exams in about 1 week? fish ! tomorrow will be OFA exam..have confident but im afraid i will go all BLANK..all those things i have learnt will disappear...oh god, guide me thruout my journey. ease my mind from any other unnecessary things..help me focus and no daydream(: i hoping to score well for this one..cause i have confident in this. so many things with so little time, thats so true ! but whatever may comes, i will continue stand on my feet..and not to give up which i nearly wanted to few days ago. i can do it with/without anyone's helps. im sure i can do this (!) By the way, got my OFA result ; E X C E L . Remember the one that im sure i going to flunk..felt like head banging in front of the computer, crying ? yessa thats the one..haha ! i got an "D" grade :( as what i expected. not surprised but im shocked haha ! but for my power-point i got "A" grade . Fuyooo...im so happy . Seriously happpy giler to the max! my hardwork okays, mind you! took me weeks and i spent hours till late midnight doing it. Overall for my OFA modules, i got B Woohooo o.0 i want to aim for A now ! jiayou kueen :D whats more, its fasting month. bulan ramadhan yang penuh nikmat :D in this month, make yourself closer to the one above(errm, supposed to be every single day)..do more good deeds and puase tu biar la full hahas. & grab this opportunity to kick those bad habit of yours ; smoking etc :)) SELAMAT BERPUASA PADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM DI SELURUH DUNIA ! HAPPY FASTING PEOPLE ! |
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